[ he is doing his best!! but he can tell it's not landing well; deflating a little as he loses confidence ]

I was not afraid of you. I was afraid because your brother is on the unit capable of revivals. ...In the past, they have attempted to punish murderers by denying revival to an entire unit. If we are not revived, we must plead with the demon in charge of the newly dead for revival, and she will inflict a permanent mark on our souls if she chooses to revive us.

Or she may refuse and leave us to rot. As mortals, our souls will decay into nothing. It is a complete and permanent death.

I was afraid of losing a teammate forever. ...and I have no idea what would happen to you if you were killed and left in that place. It might be worse. Not all of the demons here agree on what to do with angels.